Two Nights and Very Little Sleep

The past two nights have been really difficult. I know this might sound weird coming from me but I've been up late. No not later than normal, but I've been actually trying to be asleep by 11. So over the past two nights I try to sleep then my heart starts racing and pounding and I start to get really hot. I get up walk around try and calm down. Well first night my heart pounds, I get real hot, I start shaking, I can hardly breathe and guilt, anxiety and panic attack me. I thought to tell my mom, but then I fall to the floor starting to cry, shake and several emotions come over me. As I pray I start to sing "Out of The Depths" Sovereign Grace music.... It was what I pretty much posted about in the one section yesterday. I really think that during this time God is teaching me worship. For me worship has been a experience and a half. But I realize that right now worship is the only thing getting me out of this darkness. So last night it was just more worship, more prayer and more emotions.
Let me show a few songs that are my sense of worshiping God.

All I Have is Christ, Sovereign Grace music
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V0vfz5lr37g

Out of The Depths, Sovereign Grace music
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VwKPMqxmvGc

Cornerstone, Hillsong
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cWHgvkEPJiQ

I thought my anxiety was over especially after leaving my old Church like I've consistently said. I thought the anxiety was over because I got to go to the New Years part and they showed this, but this is only a part:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7zWKm-LZWm4

And here's the entire thing:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GXK8W00GFOM

I guess it helped for a little while. To tell you the truth I'm still not over switching churches, yes two moths later I'm still holding on to it.
However, like I've said before the other church isn't half bad. It's just not my type I apologize for that but to some extent I have a say. But alas, my parents make the dessions and I have to deal with it.
I will now have to see how tonight goes, hopfully not as bitter/sweet as the last two nights.